When we premiered Marissa Nadler’s “River Of Dirt” at the end of last month, she spoke to us at length about the song’s meaning. It’s worth re-reading the explanation before watching the dusty, lonesome, looking-for-love-in-all-the-wrong-places Joana Linda-directed video for the song. If you’re not into clicking backwards, at least look at this part of Marissa’s response:
El Camino is a car I always dreamt of having, because I think they are sexy cars. But el camino also means the road, or the path … In the beginning of the song, there is a desire to return home, but to a home that doesn’t exist. Words of a desire to revisit a lost place linger. There is an idealized sense in the first stanza that the protagonist, or “I”, would run away with my first love and live this utterly romanticized version of a life together, birds chirping and all, like some freaking children’s book. That doesn’t happen in the song, didn’t happen in real life, and very rarely does. I have stopped romanticizing that fairy tale happy ending that we are force fed in movies and books in our childhood, and the song slowly enters my interpretation of reality by each stanza.
Hop on the bus.
Little Hells is out 3/3 via Kemado.