i agree. no argument here. although, meth heads in general are not the sweetest. i am from albuquerque (meth is not as fun in reality as it is in hollywood, go figure). they can be manipulative and mean and completely without conscience when they are using (but so can the majority of addicts, so maybe i should say drug addicts are not the sweetest).
i have friends who do not work out and they still look awesome. it really messes with my mind. i have to intensely work out if i want to maintain a moderate figure. and i have to eat less and whatnot, it is so annoying. (luckily this is something that has always plagued me. i also have friends who were skinny and adorable in high school and for that reason they never had to work out so they didn't learn how to do it right. now they are adults and they gain weight and it makes me feel better that at least this is not something that just popped out. i know how to be healthy, it just takes a lot of effort.)
talk to kelly about jesse.
also, i ruined season two of breaking bad for my friend yesterday. i did not know she was just watching (rather than re-watching like the rest of us normal folks have to do before we start a new season, am i right?) and i spoiled it. i suck.
marry lex luther (for the money, obviously), f**k batman (because he is moody and i bet he is really active in the sack), and kill superman (because lame is lame).
i legit have not stayed in the place for more than a year in the past eight years. some of it has been involuntary and some of it voluntary. but i enjoy starting a new and pretending to be "put together ashleigh" or "party child ashleigh." who wants to stay the same all the time.
i just wish that i could have faith in something again. i remember when i used to believe in activism and thought that i could change the system and really have an impact. i don't know why i am feeling so disheartened as of late. i think that you can do amazing things if you work hard enough. but what am i supposed to do? i have to pay sallie mae. i have to pay hospital bills. i have to actually have money to live. there is only so much you can do without anything. resources are essential to start any sort of program that addresses the issues i want to address. and i have none. it is frustrating to because i can't seem to make anyone in my life understand. my parents wonder why i haven't done anything with my degree, and my mom wonders why i don't start law school, as if that is a catch all to my problems. but that is another 300,000 dollars in debt that i am not eager to take on. my healthcare lapsed this year and i owe medical bills because i haven't been diligent about getting a new plan (also, i am broke so i have to enter the statewide low income medical pool which is a real hoot). i just...sometimes i want to sleep all day and ignore everything (most of the time). sorry to be such a downer. i feel like this might be legitimate depression, which i don't have coverage for! ahhh. fun times.
signing leases is always exciting. i love moving for some reason. i know it's a hassle, but the idea of starting somewhere new and organizing and putting a life together always excites me.
really though, my sister keeps a copy of that in her toilet and i read a couple chapters one day and the grammar alone made me want to burn the book. truly horrific.
i am going to pretend like most of today didn’t happen. i have a lot of clients who are close to losing their coverage (i am a medical case manager for a non-profit that provides services for hiv positive folks who are also poor and/or homeless, we also run a needle exchange and a testing facility) and i spent an hour on the fone with one client who is not doing so well with the meth.
i watched orange is the new black this weekend and i finished it this morning. i kept crying because the stories are so real and i know people who have lived/are living similar stories and i just want to change things but i can’t because i have so much debt and i need to be paid to work because of capitalism and i just keep over thinking everything. i think i might put a little too much responsibility on myself and i can’t really separate out what is my fault and what is beyond my control.
also, my friend is getting married this weekend, so that is a plus. i just feel like lame most of the time.
i find that a cute outfit can turn a somewhat mundane day into a day that is actually pleasant. there is something about looking good that makes things seem better.
the u.s. healthcare system is awful and one of my least favorite things in the world. i would put it at number three, behind bananas and the u.s. prison system.
ahhhh! i love picking up comics. i haven't really been to the comic book store much since i started my job because they are open when i am at work. and then on the weekends i am exhausted and do not want to interact with people because ugh.
also, good luck on your date. i find the thing to do with exes is try to delete everything that ever reminds you of them or keeps them in your life because that way you can move on.
i am going to pretend like most of today didn't happen. i have a lot of clients who are close to losing their coverage (i am a medical case manager for a non-profit that provides services for hiv positive folks who are also poor and/or homeless, we also run a needle exchange and a testing facility) and i spent an hour on the fone with one client who is not doing so well with the meth.
i watched orange is the new black this weekend and i finished it this morning. i kept crying because the stories are so real and i know people who have lived/are living similar stories and i just want to change things but i can't because i have so much debt and i need to be paid to work because of capitalism and i just keep over thinking everything. i think i might put a little too much responsibility on myself and i can't really separate out what is my fault and what is beyond my control.
also, my friend is getting married this weekend, so that is a plus. i just feel like -___- <--- that most of the time.
beans for breakfast is still very much a thing...i just assume you are talking about beans that are not fried in lard, mashed, and then refried in lard before being smothered in red chile and topped with an egg. which, to be honest, is the best way to eat beans with breakfast.
nelly released "country grammar" so he forever gets a pass. that song was amazing when i was in middle school and it still amazes me as a twenty five year old.
every time i read an article about the juggalos it makes me feel -__-. yes i get it, icp is awful and their music is awful and yeah juggalos are an interesting subgroup of the american population. but this article makes it evident that there are places where you don't have to deal with them, and that weirds me out even more? it's like, i get it, poor people in larger cities are different than poor people other places around america. a lot of poor people in middle america like the juggalos and form a somewhat shared experience concerning them. and for some reason it's totally cool for yuppies/hipsters to go and observe the gathering of the juggalos like lame ass anthropologists and document it for rest of the world to see. but they always sound like bigger douchebags than the juggalos. "we went to the gathering of the juggalos and discovered that they were in general easy going people who liked to smoke a lot of weed and had awful taste in clothing and music. how hilarious and creative are we!" i don't know. this is an odd thing for me to get weird about, because icp is really awful and their music actually scares me at times...but i empathize with the juggalos. life sucks, poverty sucks, and alongside poverty comes a whole heap of other issues that can scar you for life. at least juggalo culture is inclusive and allows people a place where they can be open and do what they want?
the main problem with this is it will be reported as the case dismissed and people will assume it's because she isn't a huge racist asshole instead of realizing that this particular plaintiff just didn't have the grounds to sue. hopefully her "soul sister" is able to get something for the work that she put into the business of this awful woman.
i tend to agree. harassment is harassment. you don't have to be a member of a specific group to find something offensive. but the lawsuit was charging them with racial discrimination against the plaintiff and that is a bit of a stretch. she personally did not experience the adverse side effects of racial discrimination. if she wanted to bring a charge of harassment i think she would have been more successful.
i was going to ask the big city gummers, is meth a big thing outside of small town u.s.a.? meth is like a HUGE thing her in albuquerque (both because of this show and also because drug abuse in general is a bad thing that occurs here at high levels...).
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